In 2008, I went a little crazy (those who know me will disagree and say that I just went crazi-er). But to sum it up, 2008 had some of the best and worst moments of my life. And these moments were so intertwined that I can't tell them apart.

In short:

I fell in love and managed to get my heart broken (I blame no one but myself for this)

I trusted someone and it turned out to be the wrong person. In fact it was the last person I should have trusted.

I learned first hand what insomnia feels like. And I learned never to take a good night's sleep for granted.

I turned 25, and all I wanted to do on the day was crawl into bed. But I didn't.

I found myself a job I really love.

I cut and styled my hair for the first time in 8 years.

I realised that there are friends and then there are friends. And I really prefer the latter.

My best friend got married. And it was bittersweet.

I went to Bangkok for a training. And 2 days after I arrived, the airport was shut down indefinitely.

I lost my self-respect, and didn't like myself very much for a while. But I got that back in Bangkok. I learned to respect myself, and to like myself again.

In 2008, I learned that I should not trust blindly. I learned that some relationships are just not meant to be. I learned that what other people think doesn't matter. That as long as I know, and those who know and love me know, that's fine.

In 2008, I learned who I was.

So although there are moments in 2008 that crushed me, I can't, WON'T take them back. I think I'm finally grown up. And I've made my peace with that.

She's Married!

My best friend got married on Saturday.

There are so many things to say, but I don't know where to start. I will say that she was beautiful. She always is, but on that day, she was radiant, luminous. She was happy. And I was so happy for her, it hurt.

We've been through so much together. I know everyone says that, but it's true. 15 years of friendshp is not easily summed up in a few hundred words. But in that 24 hours, I remembered everything we'd been through together. Broken hearts, whispered secrets, solemn promises, stupid jokes, personal problems, plans for the future, anything and everything.

And I cried a little inside, because I knew change was inevitable. But this type of change I'm gladly embracing. I love you loads, babe. Congratulations! I hope you have a life that offers you the best of everything (including friends! Hint hint :p)

The Little Girl

Sometimes I cry for that little girl. The one who was so optimistic, so full of joy and love. The one who didn't think that her looks, or the colour of her skin mattered. The little girl with the glasses, the braces, the horrible hair and the thirst for something more. The girl who knew exactly who she was, and who was proud of it.

She's disappeared, that little girl. In her place, there's a woman who's confused, lost and angry. A woman who is slowly losing sense of who she is. Of WHAT she is.

I miss that girl. I wish I could find her again. Maybe then, life wouldn't be so empty, and the woman could be happy.

Me

I talk too much

I'm loud

I'm passionate

I think I have a great sense of humour

I will forever wish that I was just a little taller, just a little slimmer

I have a short fuse

If you tell me a secret that is remotely related to me, I WILL tell my best friend. If it has nothing to do with me, I will tell no one.

I hold grudges

I'm a comic geek. I love comic book heroes. Wish I was one.

I love books. They truly are food for the soul

I love writing. I write my own original fiction and fan fiction

I love coffee. It is the elixir of life

Chocolate is my obsession

I hate word games. If you have something to say, say it. Don't expect me to analyse what you're saying. I won't

I hate being helpless

I hate not knowing where I'm going

I love my family and my friends. I'd do anything for them

I have 3 cats, 1 dog and fish.

I believe I'm going to change the world one day

I sometimes wish that I could turn back time and undo some things that I've done, or said.

This is me in a nutshell. I make no excuses. I make no apologies. Take me as I am, or don't take me at all.